So, I'm not pregnant. Yet. I started spotting today, and by the time the hubby got home it was full-on. I'm sad and disappointed, but I kept having this nagging feeling that I might not be, so I'm not 100% devastated. I'm heartbroken, but I'm handling it better than I thought I would.
Each time I've gotten pregnant I knew immediately and without doubt. I was pretty sure this time, but I kept thinking that maybe I was just so "sure" just because I wanted it so badly. I guess that's exactly what it was. All my "symptoms" were just PMS. Blargh.
Hubby says this just means we get to try twice as hard this cycle. I know most people aren't successful the first month they try, but I always seem to get my hopes up :( We were originally aiming for a May conception/February baby anyway, but we got too antsy last month, so I guess this is just how it's meant to be. I hope so at least.
And on the bright side, this way we'll have our tax return right after the baby is born, so we'll be able to splurge and get some nice nursery furniture. Bickie's crib is not worth using again, and the boys are still using the other furniture, so we have to start from scratch again anyway. Babies 'R Us, here I come :D
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